4o Days

Thoughts on love, time and what its like to float

Hello! I am not well in more ways than one, but go on now, I will trust the process. In this post I am showing you 1. a short video I made for a project I did forever ago and 2. thoughts on love (basically). Enjoy <3

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I made a lil video composite of the 4o Days mural I got to facilitate in the fall. I want to give a major thanks to Kalabash School of Music and the Arts for the encouragement, support and boundless imagination. It was suggested by Natasha, owner of Kalabash, friend and mentor, that I create a grid inspired by the great expressionist painter, Agnes Martin, to track the data of our student’s 4o day practice challenge. It turned out to be a spectacle, dizzying to watch unfold over the span of 6~ish weeks and something I am immensely humbled to have a hand in.

Here’s the baby video I made commemorating it. I know, it should be longer and should include all of the silly things we did in the process (like making up the best jingle ever about the existence of squares, and math), but, I just wanted to make something generic for the general pub. You know? Enjoy:

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To Float

I know what it’s like to float, and I don’t know if I like it, but it feels like being in love. It’s so out of control, so unquestionable it forces you to let go. There is no room for comprehension because there is nothing to comprehend.

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I love making art, whatever my art is. I love lines and dots—and especially questions.

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Time

I’m learning about myself. I’m learning how I take time; How I need it to take It in, and ponder, and mostly to accept that I am still so small even when I feel gigantic. I need it to accept and celebrate the good things. I need it to love more clearly. I need it to see. 

Bliss

Bliss has a gentle touch that leans in at the center of your trunk and holds itself there; until small pores open just around your core, softening to take in its sweetness. That’s when you float. And then it’s hard to come down. 

Love

Find love. Notice it. Remember it. And practice letting go of any ideas you thought you had. There’s always a greater mystery just beyond what you discover, ready to teach you new ways. Ready to help you undress and watch you take it all out, because it wants to.

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FINAL THOUGHTS:

I am deeply grateful for love I’ve felt as of recent. I started out expecting nothing and quietly noticed all of the good flowing towards me. Love is mysterious and kind. It changes, but it never leaves.

Thank you,
PoSR